In between Bed and Breakfast
Waking up before the sun decides to join you is an interesting experience... after you convince yourself that chem lab is not just a class and you really shouldn't sleep in. Today, by the time I surrendered to the logic of my nagging inner student conscience (for the lack of a better term), I realized that waking up before everyone else gives me a unique window of time to be alone. Not just left alone or away from people while the rest of the world goes about its business. But now, the entire house, and perhaps many other houses, are completely silent because people aren't in "this world" yet. When we sleep, we become unconscious to what is happening around us, and it's almost like a mini-death! Trust me, I'm not trying to be morbid. But I feel alone right now in a peaceful way, is what I'm trying to get across. Everyone is here, no one has left or "abandoned" me, and yet their minds are off somewhere submitting itself to the whims of its subconscious. The silence is restful, interrupted rhythmically by deep, comfortable breathing. One has to be comfortable and at ease in order to fall into such a deep sleep,and although I'm not sleeping anymore, I am still basking in their rest. Who knew waking up early could be so relaxing?
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it makes me wonder why i'm always surprised by these realizations when the psalms continually tell us that the Lord is sought "early" and that you "remember [Him] on my bed... meditate on [Him] in the night watches" (psalm 63) so it seems like midnight and early morning are the original quiet times hahah.
by the way, as long as we're on this humanities-track mind, i noticed that the NIV version of psalm 63:1 says "earnestly will i seek you", while the NKJV version says "early i will seek you." interesting duality, eh? does that mean "early" means "earnestly"? you hear stories about people who get up in the dead of the night (or should i say the life of the night?) to pray... their hearts are really set upon the Lord. so would that mean that those who wake "early" are "earnest" in their seeking? who knows... okay i've said too much now loll