A Month of Sundays
I've always been a very organized person - I love lists and schedules, calendars and agendas. I used to make a schedule everyday during school for what I'd do after school (it would look like "3PM - Get home, 3:35 - Rest and eat a snack, 4PM - start Bio HW" all the way to "11PM Sleep!). It gives me a strange sense of purpose and productivity and keeps me sane when there seems to be a lot on my plate.
I received an email yesterday from the scheduling Chief PA that the December schedule was made, and with my heart pounding, I opened up the document and scanned the calendar for my name. And when I found it, it was on for every single Sunday of December. No Sundays for an entire month might as well be an entire month of Sundays. As this all sunk in, I began to wonder what that would mean not really for Blueprint because I'm sure that everything will run smoothly without me as it has many times, but for myself. So much of what I do on Sundays is who I am, what I've always done, and what I've thought my purpose was. It never really struck me that the career I chose would be so different or even conflict this way with "my other job". My heart and soul job.
In this new season of my life, where I'm being paid to perform at a certain level of excellence, and that performance is monitored and evaluated every year, I find myself almost at odds with myself. Prioritizing church and Bible studies and worship events has always been a non-issue for me. That was where my passion was, and what I really cared about. And it never occurred to me that God may have other plans for me, or other ways to serve His church that didn't revolve around my own carefully crafted schedule.
When I told my parents that I wouldn't be able to make it to church on Sunday for December, they were both surprisingly nonplussed about it. They both sympathized with my concern for missing church but said that we don't follow a religion that strictly requires Sunday to be the day of sabbath and that I could maybe even go to a different meeting on Saturdays or something. So basically it comes down to me ironing out what my priorities really are and not just assuming that they should be what I've always done, and making sure that I stay faithful to the tasks that God entrusts me with, whatever they look like.
Maybe this month will be good for me. Maybe I'll learn more about actively seeking out community and meaningful spiritual replenishment when my usual sources become unavailable. Maybe I'll be quiet and sit down and learn for a while. But whatever the case may be, I'm about to get a real lesson on what it means to not be just a "Sunday Christian".
As for my Blueprinters who may be reading this post, I still have Fridays and Christmas! Can't get rid of me that easy! =)
I received an email yesterday from the scheduling Chief PA that the December schedule was made, and with my heart pounding, I opened up the document and scanned the calendar for my name. And when I found it, it was on for every single Sunday of December. No Sundays for an entire month might as well be an entire month of Sundays. As this all sunk in, I began to wonder what that would mean not really for Blueprint because I'm sure that everything will run smoothly without me as it has many times, but for myself. So much of what I do on Sundays is who I am, what I've always done, and what I've thought my purpose was. It never really struck me that the career I chose would be so different or even conflict this way with "my other job". My heart and soul job.
In this new season of my life, where I'm being paid to perform at a certain level of excellence, and that performance is monitored and evaluated every year, I find myself almost at odds with myself. Prioritizing church and Bible studies and worship events has always been a non-issue for me. That was where my passion was, and what I really cared about. And it never occurred to me that God may have other plans for me, or other ways to serve His church that didn't revolve around my own carefully crafted schedule.
When I told my parents that I wouldn't be able to make it to church on Sunday for December, they were both surprisingly nonplussed about it. They both sympathized with my concern for missing church but said that we don't follow a religion that strictly requires Sunday to be the day of sabbath and that I could maybe even go to a different meeting on Saturdays or something. So basically it comes down to me ironing out what my priorities really are and not just assuming that they should be what I've always done, and making sure that I stay faithful to the tasks that God entrusts me with, whatever they look like.
Maybe this month will be good for me. Maybe I'll learn more about actively seeking out community and meaningful spiritual replenishment when my usual sources become unavailable. Maybe I'll be quiet and sit down and learn for a while. But whatever the case may be, I'm about to get a real lesson on what it means to not be just a "Sunday Christian".
As for my Blueprinters who may be reading this post, I still have Fridays and Christmas! Can't get rid of me that easy! =)
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